Now a Part of the Workforce

As of this weekend I officially joined the millions of Americans who are happily or unhappily a part of that which we call the workforce. I had lots of fears about having a job, no matter how much I wanted one or needed one.For instance, I was terrified that I couldn't do the job, that I wouldn't be capable because I would be too stupid or whatever (I know, stupid, but that's how it is). And then I was also worried that I would be focusing too much on work and that I wouldn't have time for school or my friends. That my grades would drop and I'd be stuck in some two-bit job for the rest of my life because I flunked out of college. Or that I would lose all my friends because I was working constantly and I would steadily become this unhappy person that all they had in their life was work and school. I didn't realize that my time management skills are much better than I thought. Even working 14 hours this weekend I managed to finish all the schoolwork I needed to complete, sleep enough and hang out with my friends. All of my friends. And next weekend I feel I wil do just as well. I've sort of made up a kind of life schedule for myself. Where I need to do at least one social thing a week, one school event a week and have one day a week where I sleep in. Then all the rest of the time I can focus on school and work and I will still have a life. I feel like I have finally started accomplishing something in my life. Now I have school and a job and all I need to do is start incorporating art into my life again and it will all go perfectly. And I have a feeling that I'll be able to figure out how to figure that in.Once I have, my life is on track and actually have a life.

One of Those Days

I'm just having one of those days that makes you feel all out of sorts. You know. When you sit back and realize that today is just not your day and just maybe you should not have stepped forth. It started last night when I couldn't find clothes for my new job at a price I could afford, continued when I realized I had left my lunch box behind in class. Then this morning I didn't sleep as late as I could have because even my body is rebelling against me. And when I went to make my lunch, I had to end up taking a ham and cheese sandwhich since I couldn't find a tupperware that fit inside my tiny Snoopy tine can lunch box. I got into several nasty little snippets with my grandmother which I'm sure I'll hear about later from my mother and then it started raining after my first class when I had to get stuff from my car parked all the way at the opposite end of the Univerity of course. And as I finally get to my car... It stops raining!!! After I've already gotten soaking wet THEN the skies open up to let the sun out! The injustice of it, I'm telling you. Now when I check my e-mail, of course my math proffessor sent me an e-mail long after I had already gone to sleep for the night so I don't have what I need printed out for class and then I'm behind on my6 schedule for reading for my geography class (which has been the only highlight of my day) and that time of the month is quickly approaching. I almost slipped and died right in front of Graham Center and I wasn't even running. I have a party to go to tonight that I'm seriously reconsidering since I just may get slipped something today since it seems to be my day for horribleness. Come on world! Let's see what else you can throw at me....

When You Learn Something New

I find it interesting how, when you learn or discover something new, that has always existed or has existed for is not a new concept, it seems to follow you around and make itself as obviously there as possible. For example, in my Geography class, I recently learned the term globalization and all the little nuances that fall under that term. Now, globalization has existed for longer than I can even trace my ancestors and I know that I participate in it every day, but I never realize how much a part of my daily life and the world it was a part of until I learned about it in class. Now, it's like every day I notice something, or several things, that have to do with globalization: Facebook, the kids at my school, eating at McDonalds, buying products at WalMart. Every time I look at the tags on my clothes and toys and pens and everything that has a "Made in China" or Made in Indonesia" or wherever it was made, I'm aware of how that is globalization and all the effects that it implies. It's almost the same, except on a less serious scale, as when I was in middle school and I discovered Converse sneakers for the very first time. I'm sure everyone wore them before I learned about them. Maybe even people that were close to me. I just never seemed to notice them until my sixth grade year and then I was like "woah!" She's wearing them and he's wearing them too! What a coincidence? Not really. They were a pretty common shoe, just not for me at the time. I don't know if it's like that for everyone, but I know that every time I learn something that seems to have an impact on me or that really sticks in my head all of a sudden I see it everywhere. I see globalization in the book I read for pleasure and in the newspaper and on Facebook. I see Converse on everyone I meet and in stores, in magazines, etc. I just find it kind of amazing that the things you learn can actually open your eyes to the world. I makes me feel like maybe I just did learn something new